Monday, May 23, 2011

Cancer is not Poppy Dip!

.... if you remember May 1, 2009 'Poppy Dip' emerged.. on my 39th birthday...poppy dip meaning 'all is good' words from our little Solomon

Oh how life has changed

May 1, 2011 (my 41st birthday) I was in a hospital bed hearing news that turned life up-side-down.

"I was wrong... the tumor was cancerous... it had 'popped'/was leaking... therefore we must take every precaucion to get any cancer cell lingering in her body,"Doctor said / told Montie midway through surgery.

We brought home our little Samson Jude at the end of Februrary-a long adoption journey from Ethiopia...we set into the adjusting having our new little guy in home...I didn't really think too much of the 'belly issues' I seemed to be having (dealt with IBS issues my whole life).... but for some odd reason the pain seemed to be getting worse?... So long story short... I had surgery to remove all girlie parts and the tumor that the doctor had assured me was 99.9% NOT cancer. I was sent home to deal with life and knowing I would start chemo therapy as soon as I healed from the surgery... dealing without a hormome in my body... Most women have time to slip into menopause /or are given hormone therapy after a hysterectomy.... but due to my cancer (Clear Cell Cancer) I cannot be given any type of hormone until after chemo... so I'm crying of the time... never was much of a 'cryer' so this is bizzare...

I had a set-back less than a week from surgery, as the pain was unbearable... so back to the hospital to get things under control.will spare you the details.. I was there 5 more days......

Now, most days I'm crying and in my bed.. I do get up some...Many have sent cards - food- encouraging words... and I thank you all.

My Doctor is suppose to let me know when the chemo will start (soon I think)... I'm trying to understand the medical part of all of this and the reality of this being my life and the dynamics it is having in/on our home.... It's very hard ...
I covet your prayers...

I've had a couple moments of feeling so good to think I might even sew a little poppy dip - as that is such therapy for me.... but it hasn't happened yet.

I do believe with all my heart that the Lord is holding my life in His hands... I don't understand a lot and wish I knew some 'why's....

so I'll try to update as I can ... and maybe offer a poppy dip auction surprise every now and then... but no promises.


  1. Sallee- just hearing your "voice" is a wonderful treat. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Be strong my friend.

  2. I am glad for an update. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

  3. so many prayers being sent your way... menopause is the worst. I was put into medically induced menopause with no hormone replacement for 8 months when I was 25 yrs old. NO FUN! I know it is much worse when you are worried about chemo and such... I am so so sorry! Praying for you...

  4. Praying for you and your family!!! May Jehova Rapha heal you completely.

  5. Been praying for you and your precious family-- you have been in my thoughts -my girls had some of their "poppy dip" on yeaterday -and I told them you had not been feeling well- they stopped and prayed -- so happy to hear from you--God has got this my friend--He has had you all along---
    Lisa G

  6. I aM SO SO sorry. Praying for you now!

  7. I am so sorry!!!
    I am praying for you and your family.

  8. Praying for you.

    My daughter LOVES her owl Poppy dress. Thank you


  9. Oh my heart hurts for you Sallee...please know I'm praying...I can't imagine WHY you have to go through this...but I know you are STRONG and you will WIN this fight!!! We all love you, kristi

  10. Praying hard for you during this time.

  11. Sallee, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Stay strong,
    Machell Rogers

  12. praying for healing in your body and for your entire family:)

  13. Sallee, you are in our prayers and our thoughts!!! We are close, Please let me know if you and your family need Anything at all. I have no answers, I only know that God is with you through this and I am praising God for your Complete healing by faith!!!

  14. Praying for you and your precious family!

    I've been following your blog the past year. Thank you for sharing and being such an inspiration.


  15. Praying for you and your beautiful family, please dont worry about sewing we want you very healthy first! We will keep you in our daily prayers and please keep us posted!

  16. this breaks my heart. i cannot even imagine what you are going through. you have been in my thoughts all day.


  17. So glad to see an update from you...thanks for letting us know how to pray for you. Please be encouraged...I truly believe that God is good all the time, and all the time, God is good. Even when we don't understand His plan, we can trust that His outcome is perfect. I will be praying for you!

  18. Sallee, You are one precious mommy! You are on my heart. Every time I dress Maylie in one of your sweet Poppy Dip dresses I think of you and pray for you. We are lifting you up to our loving Father and Physician. I think the hormone thing alone is quite a bridge to cross. Hang in there! God has big plans for you I know!
    Love and prayers,
    Lydia & family